Living with Seizures

My story is like alot of others, learning to live wit the seizures and my diseases have been easier than living with all the people and stares and gossip. I can tell alot times when I am going to have an episode as I call them, but people think I am on drugs or out of my mind, which actually I am. They can last from a few seconds till off and on for a couple of days, sometimes i get so angry with everyone saying it is the medicines you are on or what did you take, people on drugs have made life hell for the ones who are actually sick, but now I do not even want to go out of the house at 47, all my life I have been sick, but now I no nothing else can be done for me but to stay out of pain as much as possble, the thing is I will not even take the hard drugs because I no it will get worse so I wait in pain 24-7 with the stares and the talk, all I do is go to my doctors and stay home , that is what my seizures and illness have done for me left me alone waiting to see it out on my own