Living with Fibromyalgia

I have recently been told that I have fibromaylia [fibromyalgia] it was a name that I hadn’t heard before. I had had stress in the family ,and was under pressure at work, the pains in my neck were getting worse, but i still carried on. Just after Christmas I well and truly was exhausted, from then on the pains got worse. I couldn’t cope with it so my parents helped me to go privately.

He told me it was fibro, I also got my appointed for the consultant, she to said it was fibro, I remember feeling so useless ,I had always worked hard, and never been on any benefits. I always did my best for my children they never went without. I remember going to bed on one Friday night to be in bed for weeks, it was like all my engery had gone, it was a mamoth task just to go to the bathroom. I felt so useless , I really felt about 90. My husband was brilliant ,but deeply concerned.

One day when he returned home from work , he helped me up and made me a cup of tea, I don’t remember anything else until I was arosed by a paramidic, I was taken to hospital, I had collasped and stopped beathing, my poor husband and children were horrified. After being in for several days, they came to the conclusion that I had taken too many of my tablets and had a seizure I had been taking tablets but I had forgotten what I had taken.

Being depressed as well didn’t help. Too this day I am still depressed I have injections in my neck and shoulders, the first lot didn’t work, I am waiting for the next lot. I pray that they will work, I need to get back to how I was, for money reasons. I hope that the depression dosen’t get worse, I do feel like ending it all ,then I think of all the children and grandchildren, but life with fibro is just awful getting people to understand how I feel, and what the pains are like is hard, I wish I knew how to tell them, can anybody help me.

Thanks for letting me sound off I need it. Thank you