Living with Epilepsy/Seizures

I had my first seizure episode 3 years ago, at the age of 23. I had just graduated from college and was living at home with my mother and was stressed out trying to find a job. The only thing I remember is sitting on the couch with my Mom, and then I had some weird “Deja vous” sort of feeling in my head and all of these images started flashing from the past…I then completely blacked out ( my mother said that I cocked my neck back and made a weird gurgling noise and went into a full on seizure). I was taken to the hospital and stayed there for 4 days while they did CT Scans, EEGs, MRIS and even a SPINAL tap. Nothing was found to be wrong with me so I was sent home.

3 years later and I still experience small episodes…such as random times during the day I will get flashes in my head at work–I am somehow able to talk my way thru the small episodes and I have never gone into a grandmal seizure since the one I had 3 years ago.

I am getting married in 10 days, and my fiancee is absolutely amazing with taking care of me. I am SO afraid of having children, because I am scared that I might go into a seizure while taking care of them (what if I dropped them while they were a baby?).

Does anybody live with epilepsy and still raise your children without difficulty? I still want kids but the seizures have raised some red flags. I take Keppra and it seems to control everything okay..but I am still having those “what if…” feelings.

Thanks for the help.